After all this time, why is it still you? Even if you made me cry, made me mad, even if you hurt me to the point I got used to it. Because no matter what I’d still choose you. Even after all this time, if I could pick anyone, it’d still be you. It has always been you, and always will. But, if you had a choice would it ever be me…?
I’m tired of having to put on a fake smile everyday, acting strong when I’m not. I only laugh and smile when somethings funny, but at the end of the day it turns into a frown. I’m tired of having feelings. Everytime I find the key to happiness, someone changes the lock. Why can’t I be happy, just for once?
I never met you? What if I never started that conversation with you? What if we never talked? What if I never knew about your existence? What if we never approach each other? Where would I be right now? I keep wondering what would have happened if I never met you… Because if I never met you, I wouldn’t have laughed, smiled , and felt so happy. But at the same time, I wouldn’t be this hurt.
I wish I was the real reason behind your smile. I wish I was the one that you would run to, every problem you had. I wish I was the one that gives you butterflies. I wish I was the one who made you smile, the one who makes you happy. The one that you reply fast to, the one who you’re comfortable around with. The one that’s constantly on your mind, the one your heart beats for the most. And of course, the one who you’ve fallen for. I wish I was her, and you were mine.
You make me forget my problems, you make my day better. You make me laugh and smile so easily. It’s like no matter what you do, I end up smiling. Whenever I’m with you, you make me happier than I ever thought I could be. You’re the real reason behind my smile. Do you know how happy I could be, just by talking to you?
